the dream & him

yesterdays dream was superbly weird. i mean, what's with me having bday party in a house i didn't even live in?

and then, the guests. i'm inviting everyone i knew but there were still some whom i didn't reckon. and.. he came. and he did change a lot. (opposite of reality. he didn't change a lot. yeah, maybe a bit. but not as extreme as it was in my dream). so he dyed his hair sandy blonde & he smoked. and i was like, a good guy like him smoked?

did we talked a lot? i guess so. because the moment i woke up and scrolled my eyes and thought wtf, i couldn't deny that i kinda miss him. oh, and that feeling too! i mean, where are you now, dude?

and about the dream, i was having a birthday party around christmas (hello, i'm a june girl...) and besides me having presents, we were also exchanging christmas presents. so, this guy whom i think named Romy in my dream (he has shaggy hair and i don't know, cinko-ish style?) gave me some spoon from this yogurt store called lite n sassy (which in reality they didnt even sell one!) and in return i gave him some marker which i found in my house just half an hour before (in the dream, i forgot that we're gonna need a present to exchange). and this Romy guy was like, opening it with a disturbed face nad trying the marker on the spot and asking me, "hey, this is empty right?" in front of all people. and i answered noooo, i didnt know anything. and he, bossily said that yeah, if you wanna check if a marker's still working, you have to see it's edge. if it's edge is kinda white, it means it's lacking of ink. and i was like nodding and the others were like, don't care. and when i turned my head to the left corner to see him, my sister woke me up -.-

oh yeah, and about him, even when i woke up, i can feel the feeling i got from my dream. it was sweet but kinda painful, and it somehow, made me want to cry. and in the dream, i was being myself around him. oh, how i wish that can happen. but i don't want him to dye his hair and smoke alright?

fyi, this was not my first dream about him. should i say, this was my 8th dream about him in the last 2 1/2 years?